i think i did many bad things in life. and i can't seem to forgive myself somehow. only God and i know. many thats why i tend to believe in karma.

i thought that his year is gonna be better. But it feels worse that last year. i screwed up more this year. its worse cause you know you did more wrongs that you could have avoided.

you know when you play a game till you reach a point whereby everything seems repetitive and boring? but you are still quite a way from completing it. therefore you won't finish the game and decide to quit it. my life seems like that game. too bad i can't quit.

i wonder what i am suppose to do next? whats next in my life? i am moving because people tell me to or wishes me too. i dun really feel like i have something i want already. if i do, it just seems too hard to achieve. or maybe even impossible already. so tiring, to struggle and not achieve anything. i think thats how majority of the people live. such a sad life. i think life seems more meaningless each day...