its feb... oh man... how long more to ord...

i think this blog like alot of pple know le. zz.... suppose to not let so many pple know de.

ok anyway, blogging is suppose to let everyone know de i guess. if not no point blogging also right? haha.

but anyway its half dead of a blog le. if people still read i think there is nothing much to read also..

ah.... i am damn tired....

in life, there are many things you encounter. and there are many things you have to do. when u keep doing and doing and encountering and encountering you will start to realise you dunno what you are doing. Take a step back and look at everything around u and ask yourself, are you doing what u want to do? or have you been influenced by what everyone want you to do? or perhaps u are just scrapping through life? there are many possiblilties. but do people ever take a step back and ask themselves those questions?

we live in a very sad world whereby everyone is interlinked. U can't live on your own i guess. thats why everything you do is influenced by someone else perhaps? am i right to say that? its good to rely on people. U feel happiness, saddness, anger, jealousy, envy, pain and many more feelings. But it makes life very tiring at the same time.

then at times when u wanna be nice so you try to help people. you empathise with them. you care. but sometimes u are just wasting your energy. Might as well help those that will accept help. Even help is selective. grrr.... humans are such bias creatures. how do you even trust one of these?

i dun even know why i am blogging about this. must be too tired.

rid me of everything and especially all worries. sometimes i rather give up everything than to feel something. i just want to be there with you.