Thot that the previous post would be my last post in dec, but maybe there might still be more to come. little sleep and complain in the morning doesn't bode well at all.

the water in the morning feel icy cold and i just wondered if the world had turned so as well. oh well just a random thought. maybe its me who has turned cold. but i am determined to change that, i need to know what i really want now. it never felt so hard before but i am definitely more sure of what i am doing now.

2 complain, 1 joke and awhole lot about problems. what a morning. then i turn cynical and criticise everything in the little head of mine. but i think i stopped before i even started. sometimes pessimism seem to be an addiction that allow me not be involved in the pain and misery in the world. haha maybe it isn't so bad after all. yup i think i can see things in a different light. maybe i dun really adapt well to changes. haha so random.

ok nvm. i gotta stop dwelling in it. dun worry please. you know i am telling u. even though it seems like its gonna rain i am sure it will be agreat day ahead. time to get to spring cleaning!