it feels very lonely this year end. seriously i suck at keeping contacts with people. i feel so failure now. i really only learn to treasure people when i lose them. this is bad...

ok la maybe its not so bad. ya i am sure if i make an effort i can still talk to people. maybe it will feel weird at first but i am sure it will be fine later. haha i think i am just lazy to talk to people in the first place. so i shldn't complain about not having friends.

gosh... ok i gotta rephrase everything. its actually not lonely this year end, i just realised cause i am just too busy. thats why i can't keep in contact with pple. sigh... what did i get myself into.... ok la its not so bad, i still get to meet people and see people. i think i just need to adjust. plus studying and everything, its gonna be tough but i must endure!!!

today feels like one of those sad day. actually it is. blah... what to do what to do? i must ignore. and i must endure.