whoa i realised i didn't blog since the end of november. wonder what came over me. anyway just came back from penang last night.

Firstly let me complain. Why can't people dun be so gossipy!!!!! gosh. i guess human beings means that gossiping is what being human is all about.

And i realised my eyes are red, didn't realised until now. I wonder what is happening to me and why i am so tired. But at the same time i want to work, do something, and not just play or enjoy my day away. These kind of days seem sinful and i can't seem to deal with it. Haha becoming a workaholic or always have been a workaholic. Thinking about work, think i am gonna study until christmas, i rest for so many days and the urge to study is just like so huge now.

I think i have really been lazy and bad, never read the bible for so long.... although i promised myself that i am going to do it at least every alternate nights. Tonight might just be a good night to pick it up again.

Talking about the bible reminds me of what my dad told me about christianity in penang. Something about better to be a catholic than a methodist? i wonder what is really the difference. Why can't things just be simplier? I think i will just go ask my friend about it. really dunno much in this area.

Life has been unpredictable lately. I wonder what else is gonna happen.

I am determined to quit my bad habit in this new year. I am gonna not do it for one year. After one year my addict should stop. I must do it, this is my last pitfall that i have to overcome.

I think i need to start letting God really come into me, i wonder how much faith i really have in christainity as a religion. Maybe like all they say, i have to rely on the strength of god or i really can't move on. So many things i want to do, so little time and energy, i am merely an insignificant being. Sigh...

Ok so many other things to blog about but i am really lazy to talk about everything. For now everything will stay in me. Maybe it will slowly come out.