Have been feeling weird this few days. I wonder why. I keep thinking but i just can't find any leads. Maybe something bad is going to happen.

I feel more crappy today after i alighted a bus stop earlier on my way home. I didn't even realise it until i alighted. Its either i have lack of sleep or just plain blur. I dun think i was tired. Was cursing and swearing still when i realised it. Must be damn blur. Sometimes i wonder how i became a leader in sec sch and JC. I am seriously damn blur la.... Alot of luck involved definitely.

I realised i feel cold everywhere i go without the sun. Everywhere is like damn clod for me now suddenly. Even on buses, in rehearsal room, in the office, the the QM room. Oh man...

I realised i like talking to myself alot. Then sort out alot of problems. Haha. Its like the same for the blog. I feel like i am talking to myself when i type here. Always will feel better, like i chuck one part of me away somewhere to sort out by itself later.

When i think about things, it somehow always lead back to why i am here and now? What is my purpose in life? Haha then i will be like... Aiya shit... heck... Sucks to think about it. N i feel damn full of crap now. N i feel angsty. There is definitely something wrong with me thats why i feel so weird. But being in somebody's company help to distract me from this. So thats good. I feel happy when i am with people. Especially people i feel a bond with. And i am happy that my piano is tuned today!!! hahahahahahahahaha.