This post is for me to complain to myself. So anyone who read it just ignore. I just wanna remind myself of this one day again. To see if i have changed...

I can feel myself changing. Becoming more hot tempered and my mind drifting off easily. Harder to concentrate on things and also less tolerant. I think i know how i became liddat. Been trapping too many things in my mind. Many form of unhappiness and sadiness keeps coming and going and i feel that i have no time for rest. Things literally happens one after another. So does my work and things i have to do. So many things i dun even want to name them. (note to self, i think i will still remember them) It is easy to tell people that u shouldn't keep everything to urself but in the end i still keep them to myself. I just dun feel like complaining to people cause i like what i am doing. I shouldn't be complaining about what i am doing if that is the case right? But i can feel my mind crumbling. EVen though when i think about it it isn't something very serious. But i just can tell that i dunno how long i can last doing everything. Reading, doing, listening, organising... Running around all the time. Not staying at home. Not taking to my mum. I am so glad i am home now and taking to my mum alittle. I dun need to complain to people. I feel just a little happy having any random conversation. Not just with my mum. Even with my friends. I wonder how i do all this. Holding everything inside me even when so many things keep happening... I dun even know what i am typing already... Omg... kk i going to rush back to camp.