What a heavy week... i feel like alot of things actually happened but actually there is not much.

Alright... mastered the art of resting already. I think anywhere anytime as long as a close my eyes i can sleep and rest. Haha. And somehow i am able to not feel tired even if i dun sleep enough now. I think i have mastered something great. Just have this feeling inside me. Wahaha...

There are 3 things to being human. 1. To be passionate 2. To be focused in what u do 3. To be humane - By some Legend. Definitely something i will remember for life. Haha.... Never really thot how true it is, just sounds impressive and stupid at the same time.

There are also 3 things required for a relationship to be successful. 1. To tell each other everything and anything (Honesty) 2. To Love each other 3. To have comunication - By some experienced friend. Just a random conversation with a friend and he told me this. sounds impressive as well and i am quite convince somehow. haha even though it might be quite common sensical but people just fail to realise it. Especially when lovers get older...

Life is really cruel... The more i ponder about life the more i find it hard to accept. We people are hard creatures to live as and live with at the same time. Dunno why i feel that way... Sigh...

I am afraid. Somehow everytime i suppress my emotions by talking to myself, I am losing part of myself. I am losing the same anger, same saddness and even the same happiness that i use to feel. Everything just seemed so toned down. Like losing one's senses and humanity. Maybe i am thinking to much thats why. Sometimes i dun even feel a thing even if the same thing happened before and i felt very angry or sad before. I think i am losing it... Serious... But at least i am still afraid. But even that doesn't seem so real, as if i planted it there by telling myself i am afraid.

Dear naux,
I think by talking to u i am sometimes able to understand myself better. Although i will prefer not too because i know deep down inside me i am capable of many things which are absolutely evil and unethical. It is scary to know that i am unable to realised myself at all times because of that. I still rmb a senior saying that once in a while taking off ur mask is a good thing, but i dun think i can ever do that. I dun think i will ever get high or drunk on alcohol.

I think i am already half mad. Haha. But at this point all the more i feel like becoming a psychologist. Why can't i just live my own life...